Ramblings of an insane mind

Have you ever been in a room full of people yet feel like you are the loneliest person in the world? People flirting, dancing, singing and chatting. Yet, try as you might, you are only able to muster a fake smile.

Have you ever been the person outside the circle? You know; the circle of friends/acquaintances - where each and every one understands the private joke shared; all except you. For you are the little insignificant bird on the window sill; close enough to hear what’s being said, but unable to understand what’s being said. Sure they pretend that you are part of the circle, they let you hop around, sometimes they talk to you …..but bird speak ain’t human speak.

Have you ever been made to feel incredibly small by your closest bestest friends? The feeling that just stabs you right in the heart; makes you wish the earth would just open and eat you up right there and then.

Been there, done that. And I’m tired. Give me strength…or I might just decide to become a hermit.

Krispy Kreme

Krispy Kreme doughnuts are unparallaled. No other doughtnuts are as amazing as the Original Glazed Krispy Kreme Donuts. Dunkin Donuts? *blehs* puhleeze. I never even looked at Dunkin Donuts. Was never tempted to. I was never a big fan of donuts, and I didnt know what the big fuss was about when I was told about this amazing glazed donut. Now, I'm a faithful follower of the Krispy Kreme ways.

If you try talking to someone about Krispy Kreme donuts, there are only 2 different reponses you can get. One is you get a blank stare (which is good. More for the rest of us). If not, the fellow krispy kremer would start talking about how amazing krispy kreme donuts are... and if you observe long enough, maybe he or she might stare of into the distance and start salivating.. like Homer Simpson.

Founded in 1937 by Vernon Rudolph in Winston-Salem, North Carolina, Krispy Kreme only reached the Big Apple in 1995. It never looked back. Krispy Kreme have ventured out to eastern shores. The "fragrance of hot dough-meets-sugar envelopes you in warmth and then guides you over to the room-length windows to watch the wonderful Krispy Kreme doughnut-making machine at work." (Taquitos.net)

The dough journeys round a bicycle-chain like series of platform chambers where they gradually puff up and become all grown up. Then they dive into hot oil and their transformation from dough to Krispy Kreme donuts. Once browned, they trundle up a conveyor and finally parade through a grand sugar-glazing waterfall.

Nothing tastes as heavenly as a fresh krispy kreme straight off the converyor belt. It practically melts in your mouth... one of the few previews of what's served in heaven. A piece of heaven really. No matter how many times you've had Krispy Kreme, you always want more. It's simply orgasmic! You just want to melt along with the glaze.

However, they'd better rethink that costs of theirs... I dont think anyone would want to buy a RM7 doughnut!

So, what is love anyway?

This four letter word L.O.V.E. is a strange word. Some say its not even a word, but its a feeling. But some people argue we choose what we feel. So can we choose to feel love?

Love is indeed a strange thing. It can make a person do crazy things. Love is an opposite of sorts. Love can make one cry, and it can make one laugh. Love can be kind, but love can also be cruel. Love can be heaven one day, and hell the next day. Love can be happy, love can be sad. How do one deal with love?

Do you pay tribute to the proverb " Dance like no one's watching, love like you're never going to get hurt"? I dunno about you but I dont think my heart can take being broken multiple times.Once or twice, it is still possible to take out the glue and stick them back, but each time its get broken, the hearts get more fragile, and can easily break again.

Or do you keep your heart tightly under wraps. Protecting it, closing it to the world hence closing it to the risk of damage. Waiting for a worthy soul that will take special care in unwrapping such a delicate thing. And when do you know who is worthy? What guarantees are there? They say there are no guarantees in life. An enemy can one day turn into a lover and vice versa.

Do you hold true to the notion that "Love Conquers All". Believe that no matter what, things will work out, that love is a power so strong that it will over come any obstacles.

How about the song "Sometimes Love Just Aint Enough". Is this a more realistic notion to hold true to? That in this material world, that simple love is insufficient to hold a relationship together. That even if two people loves each other, a lot, that it may still not work out.

I have a lot of questions on love. Love can be easy sometimes but most of the time, its really hard. It is hard to understand love. Love is blind they say. As someone clever once sang ," when your heart's on fire, you must realise , smoke gets in your eyes".

Is love worth it? What is the price to pay for the chance to experience true love? A broken heart? Is love really worth that risk ? Issit really better to have loved and lost then never to have loved at all? But if you never loved, you cant miss what you never had can you?

So where does that lead us to? More complications. More questions. No answers. Can there really be no answer to what love is? That it just is ? Love is just love. No explanation. Love can be such a heartache. Love can be so depressing. Yet everyday, there is someone out there willing to take that risk and plunge themselves into this thing called Love because maybe that risk is really worth taking.