Ramblings of an insane mind

Have you ever been in a room full of people yet feel like you are the loneliest person in the world? People flirting, dancing, singing and chatting. Yet, try as you might, you are only able to muster a fake smile.

Have you ever been the person outside the circle? You know; the circle of friends/acquaintances - where each and every one understands the private joke shared; all except you. For you are the little insignificant bird on the window sill; close enough to hear what’s being said, but unable to understand what’s being said. Sure they pretend that you are part of the circle, they let you hop around, sometimes they talk to you …..but bird speak ain’t human speak.

Have you ever been made to feel incredibly small by your closest bestest friends? The feeling that just stabs you right in the heart; makes you wish the earth would just open and eat you up right there and then.

Been there, done that. And I’m tired. Give me strength…or I might just decide to become a hermit.